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I'd really love a follow-up on this one a few months/year down the line. For two reasons: 1. I'm wanting to hear how these effects manifest over time and in varying circumstances/relationships. How stable are they? 2. Eliminating self loathing potentiates such an incredibly wide range of outcomes that I'd like the longer-term perspective. What were the surprising/yet to be foreseen benefits?

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Have you done MDMA before these solo trips?

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Hi Sasha,

thanks for the piece, I am going to try MDMA. I am bit concerned about the interaction with Lamotrigine though. I found some anecdotal evidence it is no problem, so it seems to be okay.

In your list of indicators, especially no. 2 ( grunting noises ) hit home with me. When a thought about a past mistake or shameful thing arises I often make a noise as if in physical pain. Last night I was even afraid to wake up my next door neighbor. It is helpful to know I am not alone in this.

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“Spiritual experiences and psychological breakthroughs are irritatingly path-dependent.” Hahaha, oh my goodness, yes. It’s a tragedy but I also think a core truth, lots of tangents about how this affects structured spiritual organisations.

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It would be nice to see the effects of this after a year or so. Thanks for sharing.

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Very powerful words. Thank you for sharing your experiences.

I came from a background of deeply conservative, Christianity when I first attempted MDMA. I also experienced a similar transformation regarding my self-image. For years, all my brain could think about was being considered worthy by god, my family, and my peers. I wasn't aware of how heavy those chains were until MDMA gave me the strength to see that I had a choice to carry them or not.

I ended up choosing to lose the chain. Since having left the previous organization I feel a truly miraculous increase in well-being that I attribute to my experiences with MDMA. It affirmed to me that I am worth loving and no prayer had ever come close to providing me with that level of self-love and self-assuredness.

It is so much more than a club drug, though it's great for that context as well. 😏

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hi sasha - curious if you had an approach to managing any negative effects of the come-down? thank u

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Sasha Chapin, Loving King of the Wifeguys.

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