The last year in my brain, revisited
Sasha I have been meditating for over 4 years and have on occasion glimpsed some of what you have described, but reading your words gives me new insight and hope I will hopefully be able to bring to my practice. Thank you so much for sharing the “strange” parts of your meditation journey, I will be thinking about this post for years to come.
as always your writings present the possibility that i can be completely transformed by one blog post
Beautiful. This series of small stories describing Eternity reminded me of a few of my favorite authors, who seemed to have had similar experiences. Your Eternal Carpet experience perfectly mirrors Huxley’s Holy Fabric experience. Your frightening and then gorgeous epiphany of Eternal Existence mirrors Nietzsche’s horrifying and then ecstatic realization of Eternal Recurrence. And my favorite line, “……I knew I had been forever changed, into the thing I’d already been.”—A perfect koan if I’ve ever heard one. You had become the “hub of the wheel’d Universe” as Whitman put it. Beautiful.
I really needed to hear this at this moment of my life. Thank you Sasha.
Despite being about letting go of control, I feel like reading this has given me some additional inspiration to practice. Also, the writing in this one was lovely.
I’ve always been wired a bit like this and even more so after leaning into it in my 30s. Totally resonate with feeling slightly crazy.
something similar. seeing myself as a participant in my own life as opposed to at the helm of it, i have begun seeing others in the same way. i am becoming more patient and compassionate. people don't have control, even over the frames they see through.
I've been meditating on and off for 40 years. But it was only after reading Sasha's articles on meditation something inside me woke up and I have been meditating regularly for a couple months now. The benefits have been vast even for the short number of time. Sasha's my guru, I unabashedly will say it, he's also my writing teacher.
Rereading for the second time this amazing story has just made me feel a bit freer, a bit more settled into the moment. Thank you. I believe I've seen the Timeless Carpet once. I'm sure I'll see it again at some point, and I think your post is making me realize I'm okay not knowing when.
Do you feel now that everything you see throughout your day has a tinge of the Timeless Carpet, or does it just appear mostly momentarily, at peak meditative or emotional moments?
I have a couple of questions about the meditation practices that led you here : did you ever stick to a must-not-miss-a-day daily meditation practice? If so, did you feel that it was a challenge to do so?
I'd also like to know about your current meditation practice. I mean a practice that involves some time set aside to do just meditation. Do you have one still, and if so, how do you relate to it? Is there a sense of having to maintain the focus or discipline to sit regularly , or is that gone as well?
Ps : Also, I would love to read, in future posts, whatever you would like to write about the void. :)
Sasha, thank you so much for writing this. It came at a perfect time. I've been doing the "give up" practice in my meditation for a while, but hadn't thought of applying it to life itself. Today was day one of total surrender, and it was great, especially since I've been in a stressful law school finals season.
Great post. How much of this was enabled by doing longer meditation sits? (i.e., going from doing regular 20 min sits to 40 min sits?)
This is so incredibly beautiful and, truly, the submission I seek from "compare and despair". Where should I start with meditating? My brain feels so addled, my self seems so shackled...
So deeply insightful and poignant. I feel like I finally succeeded at understanding what stands in my way of meditating. Thank you!
This reminds me greatly of Schopenhauer: not his mood, but his description of how life works.