Have gone through a similar path, but not very much by “sitting down to meditate.”
Constant inquiry, journaling, and what some would call walking meditation/contemplation though.
Then suddenly Big self happened without me expecting it. After that, the idea of searching for “It” was a big joke, it’s always there!
And now, indeed the little stresses of cleaning up the backyard, picking up the kids from school, or work stuff is still there, not in contradiction with Big self.
Have gone through a similar path, but not very much by “sitting down to meditate.”
Constant inquiry, journaling, and what some would call walking meditation/contemplation though.
Then suddenly Big self happened without me expecting it. After that, the idea of searching for “It” was a big joke, it’s always there!
And now, indeed the little stresses of cleaning up the backyard, picking up the kids from school, or work stuff is still there, not in contradiction with Big self.
Carry water, chop wood.
Inquiry and journaling can do a lot!